Exsistence

I fight this battle all alone

Exsistence

Exsistence

when you think of reasons for exsistence of yourself,

do you see a happy go lucky person,

or the person that we all wish we weren't,

the exsistence of not really living or breathing,

the death of all emotions in your soul,

torture has been a main focus,

thrown back and fourth,not knowing how to feel,

what's the benefits you get from the source of life,

never really spacing your knowledgeable views,

the speech of the dead rose,headless,

suffring the silence of the deathly heart,

feelings of resentment and tasting the passing breath,

imagination of doubtfully guarded love,

fighting for what we believed in,never giving in,

losing a thoughtless battle of mistruth and repluse.

Different

Drain me from these feelings,

give me some different meanings,

can you tell,when will you see,

there's never been something special in me,

i've loved,i've hated,emotionless i'm left,

can you see my darkness or can you see my best,

what will it take to make you go away,

please don't come back,leave me here to stay,

soul retired to a widowed shell,

heart collasped within its self,

blame what you've taken from me,

caress what i've been left with,

leave me in this world i face alone,

i want to go back,i want to go home,

i need to be some other person,some other place,

maybe i'd be better from a diferent race,

i don't need this life anymore than i need you,

wish i had the answers to make this come true,

i've lost all i have to give to people in this world,

my bodies on fire my bodies all curled.

Last year I was suffering badly with depression as I didn't know this then I started to feel angry and wrote it down help me abit.